Anticipation

For about a month, now, I’ve woke up with a feeling of anticipation; wondering if today is the day that I get “the call”. You see, I interviewed for a job about a month ago. It is one I want really, really, really badly. I felt great about the interview and I found out that I am going to be called back for a second one. I am just waiting on the committee to set a date and call me.

So, in the meantime I wait for a call I know is coming. I am also mentally preparing for the interview—learning more about the organization, thinking of possible reasons to take time off work for the interview, drafting my resignation letter . . . . The problem is that the more days that pass without “the call” the more anxious I get and the more “worst-case scenarious” I think of. I have quickly found myself consumed with what will happen and when it will happen. Let me tell you, it’s not a nice thing to do to yourself. I’ve been more and more self-involved.

This morning I was thinking about my situation and what I should be learning from it. The anticipation and active preparing reminded me of how I should be preparing and anticipating Christ’s return. I should be learning more and more about my God and Father so that I am ready to have a relationshp with him so that I know how to work for him and how to let him work in me.

It’s a good reminder to keep my priorities straight.

© Michelle Scott 2005